One of the reasons the lifestyle choice of musician is a difficult one is that there can be an either/or quality to the musician’s identity. Am I the person that people see on stage–supremely confident and bringing an audience to life–or am I the person who struggles with intimate relationships and looks in the mirror some mornings wondering if life is worth living?
Of course the answer is both, but at times the dichotomy can be torturous. It is a great high to be visible and expressive and have the public appreciate and value you. In contrast, the inescapable mundane parts of living can feel very low and confusing.
I hope you have someone to talk to about all the breadth and texture of your life.
Deb Mashock, M.A. 